Birds were my inspiration today .
I thought about how frustrated they must get , waiting for their mother to return to the nest to bring them food. When they get tired enough , they go to the end of the nest and attempt the steps they'd watched mother perform , day in and day out.
Wobbles , falls and fails later , they find the air beneath their wings to fly . Other times , the mother will force the gentle bird out of the nest and watch it clumsily fall . Once that bird finds it's rhythm , they discover their freedom.
So how did you forget to fly ?
Mental Health is something that I am all too familiar with and still so unfamiliar. I struggle day to day to understand how to make it better , how to help , and what the right things are to say . Unfortunately , these issues plague several women of my life , these women hold a significant place in my heart because they are my friends , my family and my sisters. There's no feeling that compares to not knowing what to say but also understanding that both depression and anxiety are battles that are not easily won by words.
Having this experience , I've learned just how one minute everything can be "okay" and the next minute nothing makes sense. I've also gained an understanding of how powerful prayer can be when you don't know what else to do. Oh but my greatest lesson, is one that has helped me to no end. These women embody the true meaning of self perseverance .
If you are reading this , I know that you've heard me say this alot - but you are "much stronger than what you give yourself credit for". I've watched each of you overcome obstacles and escape the dark places that mental illness has hid you . Because of you , I have found strength in my darkness . I understand that to truly bloom , you have to be planted and the soil is most times cold and dark . Still , I can only imagine the frustration you must feel when the nest (bed) is the most secure place for you , the sun hurts your eyes , crowds bring you fear , and just a little of anything is far too much.
I've fallen so many times and I got up and tried again because I saw you do it. So , do you remember how to fly ?
I love you
Dedicated to K.I , S.A , S.J ,K.J., S.C and M.J ...my favorite birds.