Serious Moment .
I am the "Hold-On" Queen.
I hold on to clothes in case the come back in style , shoes in case my feet are just swollen and regular junk ...just in case.
In all honesty , its never served me well.
I have more clothes than storage space and not enough time to wear them all.
Still , being the "hold- on" queen has impacted my life in more ways than one.
I've found that I find difficulty in letting go of people , just as I do material things.
I found myself praying to God that he'd remove the people from my life as he saw fit
JUST BECAUSE I was afraid to do it myself
What is my fear? Hurting others. Being Questioned.
So many times I've known that a relationship /friendship wasn't conducive to my growth and still allowed these relationships to blossom.
I've learned that : Sometimes it is easier to love people from a distance and wish them well.
In time I've learned that people are here for a reason or a season. Luckily , I have been able to say that the relationships that have fallen weren't plentiful in number and that they all came with a lesson.
Sometimes , people wont understand that your decisions to do things . THAT IS OKAY.
I always held on for fear of conflict , never wanting to explain my decisions .
Never wanting to be hated .
Never wanting to miss out.
Today , I am happier than ever knowing that I have the ability to advocate for myself and spring clean when there is a need.
I am no longer a hoarder of friendships , relationships , shoes , clothes ( im working on it ) , or even memories of what WAS.
I am more concerned about what is to come.